Friday, September 18, 2009

Update on me...

Today I am 35 1/2 weeks pregnant! I went to the doctor on Thursday and everything looks great! I am measuring at 33 weeks~ but my midwife said it was because the baby is already so low (so my fears were laid to rest when she said this doesn't change or affect my due date!~PHEW!)... Baby's heart rate was in the 150's~ In the words of my midwife~ "Sounds like a happy camper in there!" :) Before I left the clinic I got all the information to register at the hospital... crazy... I can't believe it is that time already! I found out today that my insurance cut me off from any more chiropractic visits... It took all I could do not to burst into tears at the office... I have no idea how I will survive the next 4+ weeks without it. I'm PRAYING that the Physical Therapy can continue until I deliver!...

I envy women who "Love Being Pregnant".... I am NOT one of those women. Oh I don't mind looking pregnant~ That part is fun for me! I mean the incredible pain I deal with each time, that has gotten worse each pregnancy... I don't think I'm like "The Duggard Mom" (anyone watch that show?)OK, I KNOW I'm not like that mom... She HAS to be one of those women who pregnancy comes much easier for! (I mean, come on, 18 pregnancies!?!) :) Don't misunderstand me~ my children are worth EVERY ache and pain, and I am SO, SO blessed to have them... but, let's get real, sometimes you just need to VENT... and CRY... and SCREAM... because it is SO FREAKING HARD!!!! (and I am only talking about the physical pregnancy part... not the chasing a 2 and 4 year old WHILE being in excruciating pain part!) It is definitely easy to have your patience tested... over, and over, and over again! I'm so thankful for people in my life who have helped me out recently! My mom and dad are incredible~ ALWAYS willing to help take the kids... My sister who took them for the entire day last week so I could just REST, and today, a friend from Musikgarten is taking the kids for a few hours so I can prepare my lesson plans and also just take a deep breath (THANK YOU!!!!!!!)~ I can't express how much this means to me. (All my Smith family~ I know you would help if you lived closer!) :)

I am trying to every day, when I wake up, take a DEEP BREATH, and remind myself it is a NEW DAY and I am ALMOST THERE!! Some days it is just so hard. I know this "blog entry" is kind of a downer... but Some days it's just good for me to write down how I'm really feeling! Not the "I'm good, it's great, etc..." :) So with that, I will close with some ADORABLE pictures of my little blessings... The ones I am doing this for!!








5 comments:

Emily said...

Hang in there, you are almost there! You are doing a great job...it will be over before you know it and all the pain will be a distant memory. It really could be anytime now!!! ;)

Corey said...

I TOTALLY understand the aches of pregnancy getting worse with each one... But "This too shall Pass" and within 5 weeks you will be DONE being Pregnant (unless you are still thinking of having a 4th of course, LOL)!! Either way, just take it easy, and try not to do what you don't have too (again, I know thats easier said then done)! Have a great week, and thanks for sharing your heart!! :)

The O's said...

I am soooooo on the same page as you with the whole "not loving being pregnant" thing! Pregnancy and me do NOT mix well!! =) It's all worth it in the end but that doesn't make it any easier to go through!! Hang in there!

Grammie said...

All the pictures in the back yard turned out great! What a beautiful family of 4..SOON to be 5!!!
You are doing an awesome job...growing this baby...providing the space for God to perfectly form this new baby inside you!
She's almost here!!!
Love you, daughter!

Grammie said...

Oh...and I LOVE the pictures of Samuel and Serenity! They are such best friends!