28 Days....
4 Weeks....
672 Hours....
40,320 Minutes....
But, Who's Counting???? :)
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
Update on me...
Today I am 35 1/2 weeks pregnant! I went to the doctor on Thursday and everything looks great! I am measuring at 33 weeks~ but my midwife said it was because the baby is already so low (so my fears were laid to rest when she said this doesn't change or affect my due date!~PHEW!)... Baby's heart rate was in the 150's~ In the words of my midwife~ "Sounds like a happy camper in there!" :) Before I left the clinic I got all the information to register at the hospital... crazy... I can't believe it is that time already! I found out today that my insurance cut me off from any more chiropractic visits... It took all I could do not to burst into tears at the office... I have no idea how I will survive the next 4+ weeks without it. I'm PRAYING that the Physical Therapy can continue until I deliver!...
I envy women who "Love Being Pregnant".... I am NOT one of those women. Oh I don't mind looking pregnant~ That part is fun for me! I mean the incredible pain I deal with each time, that has gotten worse each pregnancy... I don't think I'm like "The Duggard Mom" (anyone watch that show?)OK, I KNOW I'm not like that mom... She HAS to be one of those women who pregnancy comes much easier for! (I mean, come on, 18 pregnancies!?!) :) Don't misunderstand me~ my children are worth EVERY ache and pain, and I am SO, SO blessed to have them... but, let's get real, sometimes you just need to VENT... and CRY... and SCREAM... because it is SO FREAKING HARD!!!! (and I am only talking about the physical pregnancy part... not the chasing a 2 and 4 year old WHILE being in excruciating pain part!) It is definitely easy to have your patience tested... over, and over, and over again! I'm so thankful for people in my life who have helped me out recently! My mom and dad are incredible~ ALWAYS willing to help take the kids... My sister who took them for the entire day last week so I could just REST, and today, a friend from Musikgarten is taking the kids for a few hours so I can prepare my lesson plans and also just take a deep breath (THANK YOU!!!!!!!)~ I can't express how much this means to me. (All my Smith family~ I know you would help if you lived closer!) :)
I am trying to every day, when I wake up, take a DEEP BREATH, and remind myself it is a NEW DAY and I am ALMOST THERE!! Some days it is just so hard. I know this "blog entry" is kind of a downer... but Some days it's just good for me to write down how I'm really feeling! Not the "I'm good, it's great, etc..." :) So with that, I will close with some ADORABLE pictures of my little blessings... The ones I am doing this for!!
I envy women who "Love Being Pregnant".... I am NOT one of those women. Oh I don't mind looking pregnant~ That part is fun for me! I mean the incredible pain I deal with each time, that has gotten worse each pregnancy... I don't think I'm like "The Duggard Mom" (anyone watch that show?)OK, I KNOW I'm not like that mom... She HAS to be one of those women who pregnancy comes much easier for! (I mean, come on, 18 pregnancies!?!) :) Don't misunderstand me~ my children are worth EVERY ache and pain, and I am SO, SO blessed to have them... but, let's get real, sometimes you just need to VENT... and CRY... and SCREAM... because it is SO FREAKING HARD!!!! (and I am only talking about the physical pregnancy part... not the chasing a 2 and 4 year old WHILE being in excruciating pain part!) It is definitely easy to have your patience tested... over, and over, and over again! I'm so thankful for people in my life who have helped me out recently! My mom and dad are incredible~ ALWAYS willing to help take the kids... My sister who took them for the entire day last week so I could just REST, and today, a friend from Musikgarten is taking the kids for a few hours so I can prepare my lesson plans and also just take a deep breath (THANK YOU!!!!!!!)~ I can't express how much this means to me. (All my Smith family~ I know you would help if you lived closer!) :)
I am trying to every day, when I wake up, take a DEEP BREATH, and remind myself it is a NEW DAY and I am ALMOST THERE!! Some days it is just so hard. I know this "blog entry" is kind of a downer... but Some days it's just good for me to write down how I'm really feeling! Not the "I'm good, it's great, etc..." :) So with that, I will close with some ADORABLE pictures of my little blessings... The ones I am doing this for!!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Pregnancy and Life Stuff...
As of yesterday I am now 33 weeks pregnant! I can hardly believe it! Only 7 weeks to go!... wow. Some days I am MORE than ready to have her~ mostly due to the bodily pain she inflicts on me ;)... But other days I think, "AHH! I'm not ready!!!"... Ready in the sense of a tiny newborn again~ Serenity is fully potty-trained, in a "big-girl" bed, puts her own shoes on, etc, etc... And the thought of starting it all over again makes me just a tad bit tired. :) BUT I am SO grateful to have two kids that are very independent! It is wonderful to know we won't have TWO in diapers, etc! I also love the fact that Samuel and Serenity play SO well together... It will be nice they can keep eachother occupied while I am busy with the new baby.
As for the physical part of "getting ready for baby", we have been "ready" for awhile now... Clothes ready, Crib ready, Car Seats ready. I keep trying to picture myself with THREE kids! (It's hard!) I do feel like this one will have just a slight advantage being the 3rd... Since her mommy was the 3rd baby too! I have always had a soft spot for Third-Born's... Always will. :) Whenever those "ALL-KNOWING" mom's say that "OH, the third will put you over the edge... The third is SO hard... The third throws everything off balance..." I kindly look at them and straighten my shoulders and remind them I was the third and God made me strong-willed for a reason. :)
Let's see... CRAVINGS... I have had such WEIRD, RANDOM, Cravings! Not even really food wise! I HAVE to have crushed ice (Yes, I did find out this means you are anemic... which turns out I am... I got tested last week and my levels are super low, so I get to take a wonderful iron and pre-natal pill that cause other problems to deal with!).... But I don't think it will change the fact I will STILL want crushed ice every day, multiple times a day! I also LOVE soap right now. I know. I know. Not just any soap but bars of Dial Soap- the white and gold kind. I can't tell you how many bars of soap I have bought during this pregnancy. Any chance I can get to wash my hands I do! LOL. Also, I HAVE to have a warm bath every day- sometimes twice a day! I realized that as long as I can have my bath, with my dial soap and crushed ice, I can get through the day. (Ahh, the simplicities of life!)
Things that make me more than ready to NOT be pregnant anymore ;)~ Sciatic Nerve pain~ causing me to visit the chiropractor and physical therapist on a regular basis. Heartburn- Wow, the heartburn! (I hope this means she will come out with hair on her head!!) EXHAUSTED- TIRED- FATIGUED- DID I MENTION EXHAUSTED... (Oh yeah, that doesn't really go away for 2 years, does it... lol.) Not being able to turn over in bed without shooting pain coursing through my body... yep, I'm ready for that to be over :)
IN ALL SERIOUSNESS.... I have to be honest, I have such a fear that everything will be okay. All around me I hear about still-births, complications, SIDS, etc... It almost paralyzes me with fear... I keep thinking Three is pushing it... I already have two healthy kids, why would God allow me to have a third? (Mind you, I was also like this the whole pregnancy and MONTHS after Serenity was born. I had Serenity sleep right next to me for weeks and months after she was born so I could just hear her breathe.) I have to once again tell myself, "YOU WERE THE THIRD!! AND YOU WERE JUST FINE!!) I just think it is so easy to start hearing about "This family's situation, or this story, or I heard about so & so"... When I just need to keep praying every day for this little blessing God has given us, and TRUST Him that it will all be okay. (It's that lack of trust thing again!)... I really am so thankful for my children. Every day I look at them and thank God over and over for the JOY they bring to me every day. I really feel that I was BORN to be a mommy. (As hard and tough as it is, there is NOTHING more rewarding!) So, this said, I'm going to post this, and go play with my little blessings! Hope everyone has a WONDERFUL Holiday weekend!
As for the physical part of "getting ready for baby", we have been "ready" for awhile now... Clothes ready, Crib ready, Car Seats ready. I keep trying to picture myself with THREE kids! (It's hard!) I do feel like this one will have just a slight advantage being the 3rd... Since her mommy was the 3rd baby too! I have always had a soft spot for Third-Born's... Always will. :) Whenever those "ALL-KNOWING" mom's say that "OH, the third will put you over the edge... The third is SO hard... The third throws everything off balance..." I kindly look at them and straighten my shoulders and remind them I was the third and God made me strong-willed for a reason. :)
Let's see... CRAVINGS... I have had such WEIRD, RANDOM, Cravings! Not even really food wise! I HAVE to have crushed ice (Yes, I did find out this means you are anemic... which turns out I am... I got tested last week and my levels are super low, so I get to take a wonderful iron and pre-natal pill that cause other problems to deal with!).... But I don't think it will change the fact I will STILL want crushed ice every day, multiple times a day! I also LOVE soap right now. I know. I know. Not just any soap but bars of Dial Soap- the white and gold kind. I can't tell you how many bars of soap I have bought during this pregnancy. Any chance I can get to wash my hands I do! LOL. Also, I HAVE to have a warm bath every day- sometimes twice a day! I realized that as long as I can have my bath, with my dial soap and crushed ice, I can get through the day. (Ahh, the simplicities of life!)
Things that make me more than ready to NOT be pregnant anymore ;)~ Sciatic Nerve pain~ causing me to visit the chiropractor and physical therapist on a regular basis. Heartburn- Wow, the heartburn! (I hope this means she will come out with hair on her head!!) EXHAUSTED- TIRED- FATIGUED- DID I MENTION EXHAUSTED... (Oh yeah, that doesn't really go away for 2 years, does it... lol.) Not being able to turn over in bed without shooting pain coursing through my body... yep, I'm ready for that to be over :)
IN ALL SERIOUSNESS.... I have to be honest, I have such a fear that everything will be okay. All around me I hear about still-births, complications, SIDS, etc... It almost paralyzes me with fear... I keep thinking Three is pushing it... I already have two healthy kids, why would God allow me to have a third? (Mind you, I was also like this the whole pregnancy and MONTHS after Serenity was born. I had Serenity sleep right next to me for weeks and months after she was born so I could just hear her breathe.) I have to once again tell myself, "YOU WERE THE THIRD!! AND YOU WERE JUST FINE!!) I just think it is so easy to start hearing about "This family's situation, or this story, or I heard about so & so"... When I just need to keep praying every day for this little blessing God has given us, and TRUST Him that it will all be okay. (It's that lack of trust thing again!)... I really am so thankful for my children. Every day I look at them and thank God over and over for the JOY they bring to me every day. I really feel that I was BORN to be a mommy. (As hard and tough as it is, there is NOTHING more rewarding!) So, this said, I'm going to post this, and go play with my little blessings! Hope everyone has a WONDERFUL Holiday weekend!
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