Friday, February 11, 2011

A conversation with my six year old...

It has been a GOOD week.  A week that you sit back and really see the life that God has given you.  So many times I am so busy going here, going there, doing this, doing that, that I don't get the chance to STOP and really look at how richly blessed I am.  While driving in the car the other day, Samuel asked me, "Mom, do you want to be rich someday?".... (Me, laughing, already knowing the answer in my head, instead replied with an answer I pray will stick with my son for life...) "Buddy, I already AM rich!"  He, being the realistic kid he is, of course replied~ "No you aren't?..." :)  Stopping for a moment to catch my breath, since I am a mom who tends to get choked up on the simplicities of life, answered, "God in all his infinite wisdom and love gave me YOU, gave me Serenity, gave me Katerbug, and gave me Daddy... I am more rich than I could ever hope to be." After I got done parking the car, Samuel jumps out and smiles sheepishly with his head turned to the side and his hands on his hips and gave me a look as if he wasn't quite satisfied with that answer (being a boy and all), and I'm sure ran off to capture another villian or conquer another castle... But I on the other hand just sat there in the car for quite some time thinking about our two minute conversation and something just STUCK.

I may not have the newest "Swagger Wagon" (that all of us young mom's dream of having...) :)
I may not have my yellow dream house with white trim, a picket fence and a wrap around porch (yet!)
I may have a car that its windshield wipers stay up when they are supposed to go down, and one that makes all sorts of strange noises whenever I have the music down low enough to hear...
I may not have it "all together", "organized", and "figured out"... And there may be days that I collapse into a corner because this life is HARD work, and being a mommy is a tough job and being a wife means constantly putting your own desires down and instead looking toward someone elses needs...

But even so.... I. am. rich!

I am constantly in awe of God's goodness and His love.  His grace and forgiveness.  His gentleness and His kindness... I don't deserve the gifts that He gives, (who is deserving!?), but I will continue to remind myself on the hard days, of all the He has done for me, and all that He has poured out upon my life.

And if the question ever comes up again if I want to be rich someday.... my answer will always remain the same,
                                                        "I already am."



Monday, February 7, 2011

MONDAYS

Mondays.

Maybe I'm the only one, but Mondays are especially hard for me.

Yes, it IS the first day of the week.  Yes, we DID just leave a busy, fun-filled weekend, Yes I DO have a million & one things to do...But, I think it is more than that for me?  I find this battle EVERY. SINGLE. MONDAY...
                          To WORRY

Worry about Money. Parenting. Jobs. Marriage... LIFE! 

There doesn't even have to be an actual "reason"... It just happens.

I find myself waking up, my brain reminding me what day it is, and the worrying begins.

*SIGH*

Maybe I'm the only one... But today I will continue to reach for those boxing gloves, step into the ring, grab my bible and FIGHT...
           
             Fight this Monday sickness of "WORRIES".


"My PEACE I leave with you, my PEACE I give unto you. NOT as the world giveth, give I unto you.  Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid!"
                                                ~John 14:27